"I came to the class in the middle in time for the lovely lunch and cup of tea. A warm welcome always greets us "Hello Babs how are you today". I can feel myself letting go of the world outside, instructions once a blur for me to take in are clear "we are doing patterns and then putting them onto a collage" I started doing triangles, when I was a child I doodled boxes and triangles, so now I just did patterns of triangles, I decided I wanted them in one colour. It all seemed quite easy for me to do, and for me to make a decision to decide on a colour or pattern, well that's a change from just putting a splurge of paint on some paper and saying well I can't paint.
After the class Julia sat with me while I articulated stuff about my family, about how I saw things differently now, that mental health issues had consumed both my father, and brother but now I have stepped out I understand it better, I am not part of it, I am on the outside, but I have suffered from a family consumed with depression and sadness, I grew up in that family, at any time it could be me, going down like the others, not coping, not dealing, not seeing, not hearing.
I am at home alone today, there is always an emptiness where the love of family and past relationships should be but it's gone now that feeling has gone, so I plan my day, a swim this afternoon, teaching later and then to Kingston for rock choir singing.
I was so pleased that art and soul got charity status that we are part of that, that it's recognised what great work art therapy does In helping to heal. I hope I can do something to raise awareness through art. I want to do that. Because I didn't go down, I didn't want to I fought it, but others do, and they can come up again. "